Back in the hospital but this time it's me and not June
I'm on the same floor in the same hospital where June was at when I brought her to the hospital when she had the stroke on the 15th of last month and she died on the 21st just a few days later.
I was having dizzy spells for about 3 days and pressure on my chest which I thought might have been due to the stress I've been under for the past year and a half. I went to the walk-in clinic and they said I needed to go to the emergency room because my EKG looked bad. I went to the emergency room and they admitted me on Monday and they've been running tests and they think I have blockage on the left side of my heart from the nuclear stress test they performed on me yesterday. They're going to do another test in the morning where they put the camera in your vein to look in your heart.
I prayed to the Lord all the while that June was sick to keep me healthy so I could take care of her. Looks like God took me up on the deal. Less than a month later here I am.
I'll find out in the morning whether I need to have stents put in or open heart surgery I guess.
I guess this is in keeping with my theory that I was already dead and living in hell as terrible things continue to happen. I suppose I could jump off a bridge to test out my theory but then as my luck goes it wouldn't be good I'm sure.
Well guys when you have the time say one for me.
I'll keep you all updated and if you don't hear back from me, well things just didn't turn out very good.
I've enjoyed it here Y'all so take care now. I'll be back if I can.
Greg
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You have my prayers
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Hang in there, Greg. We've lost too many good folks already.
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Talking to Him now…putting in a good word for you.
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I will put you on my list
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One of the worst things about being here in the hospital is the fact that June's ashes are sitting on an end table in our living room in an urn and I'm here in the hospital not able to have a memorial for her.
Our kids and the rest of the family we're making plans for a get together soon and since everyone lives out of state so now that's on hold until I get out of here and if I don't get out they can have a double memorial sometime and put us in the same vault together. I've already told everyone to make sure that we are put in the same vault together and buried next to the rest of our family in the cemetery that my great grandfather bought at the end of the 1800s. There's still 6 gravesites left in that old plot. Great great grandpa is there along with my great grandpa and my grandpa and my dad along with my great great grandma, great grandma and grandma.
All the other times over the years June was always by my side in the hospital when I needed surgery or whatever to watch over me now it's just me alone here. My mom is 90 years old and while in good mental condition she's not getting around very well these days and my sister takes care of her so they can't come to help me out either.
Our oldest son is still taking care of his wife who has stage 4 brain cancer and trying to keep our grandkids in school while trying to run his business. Wish I could be there for him.
Our youngest son lives in Seattle so he can't just come running every time one of us gets sick. He's already spent a lot of money on plane tickets this past year to visit his mom. He and his wife were just here 3 weeks ago.
Sorry to ramble on guys but I got nothing else to do until the morning when they run the test. Who knows maybe I'll get lucky this time? Yeah right! That almost makes me laugh to say it.
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Greg, my father has been through this seventeen times, and still here. They are very good at what they do.
Prayers for the least invasive procedure, and speedy recovery.
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You've definitely earned our prayers, just don't give up, hang in there 👍️
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Hang in there, Greg. We've lost too many good folks already.
+1...
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Sending prayers.
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If stents are the answer, you'll feel better pretty quick.
You're still young enough to have open heart surgery and come back from it.
Now is the time to rest and get yourself well. Everything else can wait.
Prayers from SW Virginia.
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Prayers sent
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Prayers said!
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prayers
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Prayers from MO.....
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I've been where you are. I wound up with 5 bypasses back in 2015. I'm still chuggin along.
My father died and his wife had him cremated, I went to see her later and she asked me to have the funeral home cremate her and put both of their ashes in the same urn, so that's what I did. She also wanted their dog's ashes that they loved so much to be included in the urn.
Funeral homes will accommodate most any reasonable request.
Joe
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Smitty, your family needs you. Our best prayers and wishes for your recovery physically and emotionally. In time good memories will rise to the top. Hang in, time is your friend. More time with your family is the reward.
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Ramble on anytime you get the urge. I think it is well worth the read. Prayers. Don
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Still on my prayer list
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It seems like the Lord has answered your prayers in the past so no reason to think He wont answer your prayers now!!
Prayers sent.
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Thanks for the prayers and well wishes. You all have been a big help over the past year and a half when I had time to visit the site.
For some of those that may have not seen my earlier posts about June, she battled stage 4 lung and spine cancer for over a year and a half as I sit by her bedside. I really can't describe the pain that she went through.
I used to think that I was a pretty tough guy and went all through grammar school and high school and never cried a day because it wasn't the thing that boys did but I got to say I made up for it this past year and a half.
I had my arms around June as she took her last breath. The most heart-wrenching thing I ever went through. I don't think I can ever get over this. When I'm able to sleep I still wake up two or three times a night thinking I hear June crying and needing her pain medicine. Then I realize it was only another bad dream. I still reach over to see if she really is not there.
I look back now at the half century that we spent together and remember all the great times that we had which makes me wonder why we ever had an argument over any thing. That was time wasted that I would give anything to have back.
Maybe my rambling on will help someone else realize how much they love their wife or husband and maybe won't make any stupid mistakes by arguing over the little things that mean nothing.
Maybe that's the reason some people never get married or fall in love because they know it'll end someday and don't want to go through this.
Sorry guys I'm getting sappy now. I need to try to get some sleep. The nurse just brought me a sleeping pill so maybe I can go to sleep and forget all this for just a little while.
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Smitty, my wife had two stents put in and a ablation. Right now she is fighting for her life.( different problem) Dr. Craig Smith same guy who did Bill Clinton and Barbara Walters cracked my chest and I survived. Just ask the Doc if he ever did this before and if not run like hell. Seriously Smitty you are going to be fine. Yes, the love that you showed June had a big impact on my life and made me realize how much I love my sweetheart Diane. Prayers for you and your family ---Ray
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YOu go it
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I am thinking of you constantly and I cannot wait to check in and hear that you are on the road to recovery and feeling much better.
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hoping the best for you . I am sure they will get you back in action
I had my chest opened up 16 years ago ( I was 48 ) had a heart Cath done a couple months back Doc said it looked like he done it yesterday all good
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Greg, you are in my prayers. Over a year of being Ms. June's caretaker may have narrowed your thoughts to that being your only reason for being. Remember you are also a friend, a father, a grandfather. You still have many miles to go as many things to many people.
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what susie said so well
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I am so sorry to hear about June, She was a strong woman and cared about you as much as you cared for her.
No honestly, I must have gotten some dust in my eyes. Ya that's it, dust in my eyes.
June had something the doctors still do not have a handle on.
From the sounds of it, you have something that the doctors DO have a good handle on. Hang in there.
My wife and I have had talks about you and June, even when I am NOT on the forum, which is a rarity .
Sending best wishes your way, so you can continue to ramble and be as sappy as possible.
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My prayers are going out for you this morning Greg. Hang tough my friend. God's got this!
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Prayers asked for you Greg
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You hang in there Smitty the world needs men like you as does your family, prayers for a complete recovery and you can ramble anytime you want, and as said above there is a lot of dust in the air...
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